Oh Yeah

I had a whole wheat bagel with lf peanut butter, too.

Log of Food

just trying to remember cuz I deviated from my original plan. . .

applesauce
1 packet of banana oameal
1 oatmeal raisin cookie
a cadbury creme egg
kichadi (basmati rce, split mung dal, 1 yellow squash, 1 cup of spinach, some baby carrots, and 1 chopped up serrano chili, plus a bunch of spices)
the rest of the ff Pringles (I had some last night though, so it wasn't half of the can) ;p
some macaroni with tomato sauce
salad (mesculin mix, tomatoes, carrots, apples, walnuts, craisins and little bit of balsamic vinaigrette)
3 blackberries
and 1 Pete's Wicked Wanderlust Cream Ale ^_^

Flying Purple Lamb Time

I'm just going to curl up on my bed with it (it's a stuffed animal ;p) and read for a bit. I feel awful physically and annoyed mentally. I was doing okay until I got to work. I don't know why I got triggered at work; I think it was FMC related. v_v I ate a Cadbury Creme Egg and a sf Red Bull-- that was okay. On my break I had half a pint of Chunky Monkey and 1/2 a can of FF Sour Cream and Onion Pringles-- and I don't have to tell you how that ended. :( I ate a can of veggie chili when I got home, and I've been wrestling with my body ever since cuz it gets confused when I eat a lot of liquidy stuff. And my stomach hurts, to top it off.

Tomorrow I'll have a sandwich for breakfast (egg and cheese), and I'll make kichadi ('nother Indian dish) for lunch; having dinner with my parents (macaroni). I dread being snowed in tomorrow night though (hopefully not Tuesday as well) cuz I have a lot of food running around here. It's such a catch-22; I need to have food in the house, but I have to be careful not to go crazy with it. Well, we'll see what happens.

I Just Can't Do It

I seriously think I'm going to pare my buddy list down to the two people I talk to on a even slightly occasional basis. No reason having 50 names just so I can read people's away messages and profiles. I've already blocked people that I found harmful or annoying. Why not just cut out (almost) everyone else?

There's a handful of people on my list that I just can't bring myself to talk to again. Not cuz I'm mad or upset with these people, just cuz I haven't talked to them in so long that it would be strange. I don't really have anything to say, either, so it was be awkward too. It's not that I don't want to talk, I just feel too unimportant. I don't think any of the people in question probably even care what's become of me. So why bother?

Last night I went to the Starbucks down by Sam's Club. As I was getting into line, I ran into a guy I know from some of my history classes, Travis. We talked quite a bit when we sat near each other in Dr. Klein's class, and although we sit on opposite sides of the room now in my Hist of RI class, we have chatted briefly since the beginning of the semester. So anyway, last night I tried being friendly and making small talk. Maybe you're thinking that's a good step, especially for me-- but you know what? I just felt worse afterwards. It was a pleasant enough two-minute convo, after which he joined the friend he had come with in one of the corners, and I went to one of the tables so I could write in my journal. Nothing bad had happened. I just couldn't shake the feeling that I had been too loud, too scary, too up-front somehow. I was thoroughly embarrassed and upset with myself and avoided even glancing in their general direction although my chair naturally faced that way. It was awful.

This so ties in with my not wanting to IM people I haven't talked to in awhile. I don't want to come across as too needy (I mean, if these people obviously have moved on from wanting to chat with me, why should *I* still be interested?) or anything like that.

Imaginary people are so much easier to deal with.

I Need to Write

to keep myself distracted and out of the bathroom. ._.

I spent the afternoon cleaning my saddle and bridle and went through all my horse equipment again to make sure nothing randomly leaked or became moldy or anything (everything was fine).

But it was maybe not such a good idea. It just reminded me that I'm not going to be *using* my horse stuff anytime soon. I thought I'd be able to save enough money for a new helmet and chaps, etc. but I've only been able to set aside $70, which isn't quite enough for either. Even if I did manage to buy new things, though, that doesn't answer the question of how to pay for the actual riding lessons every week ($45 is the average price). Granted, I probably COULD save up more money during the summer, when I am working full time (except when I take my class), but then I won't be able to ride until the Fall, and then it's going to get cold again, and. . .gah.

I'm starting to feel like it's more trouble and more WAITING than it's worth. Why does everything good always have to be in the future? >: (

Thing is, I COULD just spent the money I saved for horse stuff on a series of yoga classes that start in the beginning of March. Yoga doesn't even bring me half the amount of happiness that riding does, but I do enjoy it and it would be something that I wouldn't have to wait for. I would still need to buy things to wear however. At least a pair of yoga pants, which I could just wear over my old ballet leotards. Well, I have to decide on this very soon, so I am going to price/try on pants tomorrow. The problem is that the amount of $$ in my savings account is getting too low for my liking, and I still need money to bring with me to NYC and for the train and whatnot. So if I decide to do yoga, I am basically giving up on the horseback riding idea.

This is what pushed me to the ice cream and then to the toilet, if you get my drift. SO FRUSTRATING. >: ( And it doesn't help that I had to miss my therapy appointment today because of the snow.

Well, I'm gonna play MahJong and then read the next part of the document I'm looking at for my paper. At that point, the ice cream that's left will have moved along and I guess I'll be okay.

Food Log #One Billion

egg and cheese on a bagel
container of applesauce
1 slice of bread with lf pb
some of the yam/cranberry/marshmallow/oat casserole my Mom made
2 veggie dogs
2 brownies
6 nutter butters >:(
2 handfuls of trail mix
ice cream (somewhat ._.)
catfish, breaded and fried >:(
mixed veggies
like 5 Fritos

At this point, i don't care. I don't know what else I'll end up eating, but I'm willing to bet it won't be anything good.

Hi

I had a Pete's Wicked Wanderlust Cream Ale, and it's affecting me a little. ^_^

I own this thing called "The Book of Questions" and that's basically what it is, with space to write your answers. I had the kid's version when I was younger, and it's interesting to read it now, since I answered them at different ages, so it's easy to see how my thoughts on various subjects evolved, not always for the better. I never answered the ones in the adult book. maybe I will do that tonight. What? Did you think I was going to reveal my answers in here? Not likely. (Although most of the questions are pretty mundane. . .stuff like #48: Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as your dinner guest? as your close friend? as your lover?)

So, with that, I'm going off to read and stuff.

Very Frustrated

Nevermind.

Stuff f

First, food:
egg and cheese on a wheat bagel
small container of applesauce
1 hot cross bun
a double chocolate donut :x
some type of korma (Indian), that had a really rubbery piece of bean curd in it, hehe
a handful of Whole Foods trail mix
some B&J's Gobfather (new flavor!)

******

Okay, I am totally stealing the following survey from Chelsea's livejournal. I don't think either her or Nick probably read this, seeing as I haven't talked to either in a very long time. :\ And it's getting to that point where I feel like it would be weird to say hi. Me and my social neuroses, most likely. In any case, here we go:

*Thirteen random things you like*
1. bison
2. Jonathan Hadary (hehe)
3. the assassinations of Pres. Garfield and McKinley
4. looking around in antiques shops
5. mango pickle :D
6. fashion magazines
7. snakes
8. Japanese beetles
9. weird industrial/goth/dance bands
10. journaling
11. FMC :p
12. the smell of hay
13. collecting random sticks when I go hiking in the park

*Twelve Good Friends*
1. Rich
2. Matt
3. Jen (not necessarily a "close friend" but we talk before History class and even outside of class sometimes O_o)
But even if I listed everyone in FMC, I still wouldn't have enough for 12. ._.

*Eleven Good Artists/Bands*
1. Green Day (can I just list them 10 more times?! hehe)
2. The Clash
3. My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult
4. Ben Folds Five
5. Tori Amos
6. The Smashing Pumpkins
7. Beck
8. Alien Sex Fiend
9. Barenaked Ladies (everything except their most recent CD, that is)
10. Billy Joel
11. Mozart (since we are one and the same :p)

*Ten Good Movies*
1. Spiderman
2. Spiderman 2
3. A Clockwork Orange
4. The Shining (with Jack, though the 6 hour version was pretty good, too)
5. Center Stage
6. Seabiscuit (I *did* like it a lot, but. . .)
7. The Ring/Ringu
8. The Nightmare Before Christmas
9. Requiem for a Dream
10. Chicago

*Nine Things About You Physically*
1. 5'5" = height
2. 115 = weight
3. I have reddish/brown hair, with blondish streaks
4. I have a stupid rash right under my belly button that won't go away, and has been on some part of my body for about 3 years now (nothing makes it leave for good)
5. I have had toenail fungus for as long as I can remember :D hehehe
6. my legs are naturally turned out cuz I wore a hip brace when I was really young
7. it looks like I have pierced ears, but the holes have been closed up for awhile cuz they kept geting infected and it was a pain to keep dealing with
8. still have quite a few scars :9. I have never, ever, ever had a stomach bug

*Eight Favorite Foods*
1. ice cream (Ben and Jerry's Chubby Hubby!!)
2. sushi
3. all types of curry
4. macaroni and cheese
5. bagels with cream cheese
6. apples
7. the chocolate cake with marshmallow frosting that Entemann's makes
8. does coffee count? hehe

*Seven Things You Wear Daily*
1. my watch (since Pikachu left me :( )
2. socks
3. some kind of chain
4. jeans (except in summer)
5. bra
6. underwear
7. some kind of shirt

*Six Things That Annoy You*
1. stupid customers
2. stupid/asshole-ish drivers
3. people that socialize in the library V_V
4. foods that taste so good but are so bad for you (hehe)
5. the real world, in general
6. Toasty, for being a total brat

*Five Things You Touch Daily*
1. my purse
2. money :p
3. myself (not in THAT way, hehe, but you know what I mean)
4. my car
5. the on/off switch to my space heater

*Four TV Shows You Watch*
1. The Apprentice
2. America's Next Top Model (can't this season though. . I'll be at work! v_v)
3. Whose Line is it Anyway?
4. Family Guy ( haven't lately, but still)

*Three Celebrities You Have a Crush on*
1. Billie Joe Armstrong
2. Tobey Maguire (not when he's beefy though, hehe)
3. hmm. . . I tend to admire people more for their talent than their looks, so I I'm afraid I gotta leave this spot blank :p

*Two Things You Can't Live Without*
1. Rich
2. FMC

*Name One Thing You Want More Than Anything*
1. sanity. please.

That's about it.

Just Keeping Tabs

food today:
banana/pineapple/coconut ff smoothie from school
1 Reeses pb egg
some Japanese noodle soup bowl (that I didn't know had mushrooms in it, so I had to pick them all out >: ( )
lots of curry from last night (sweet potato, green beans, yellow squash, tomato, spinach, kidney beans and a billion spices)
2 poppadums (Indian wafer thing)
1 cranberry nut cookie from whole foods

C'est tout.

And I am happy with my Avenue Q icon. :p

Mmm, Halloween Ale

Yes, the bottle that's been sitting on my desk since October. I was about to dig into my bag of Whole Foods granola, when I was like "Hey, I should have the beer instead."

Soooooo. . .I am!

It's not too bad. In any case, it'll get the job done. I've been hankering for beer lately, but I haven't felt like plunking the money down for some. I've been too busy buying more important things, like old Beck CDs. :p (It does make good driving/dancing music, though so nyah)

I really didn't have a good day though. I don't know how I'm supposed to make it until 3pm this Friday for my next therapist appointment. I really think I'm a good candidate for going MORE than once a week, but it was hard enough getting an appointment as it was.

I was very disconnected today. Randi is especially throwing me for a loop cuz he's the unhappy one right now. >:\ He was SUPPOSED to drive to Storrs, CT today to work out his schedule and I was SUPPOSED to go to school today to help set up the Celebration of Natural Body Types stuff. But he didn't go, and I didn't go and that wasn't good of me. Then tonight he/I went ahead and polished off 3 hot cross buns for really no good reason. I'm not sure who's drinking the beer right now, but that's definitely all anyone that has anything to do with me is consuming tonight. Grrrarr.

If you're confused by all that, just imagine how I feel. And I have three other people to contend with, though everyone else has been fairly tame recently.

Although I like my story a lot, it does get troubling from time to time. I don't like when it negatively effects my real life, like today. Today was just otherwise bad though, which may have also played a role in my not going to school. When I'm in one of my down moods, I literally feel like there's a wall pressing down on me. Not a physical sensation, but everything just feels blunted and like I can't escape it, so why try? Sometimes it even seems like everything is a shade of grey, or just dull-er in color than usual. Very strange. Times like these, I fear I may actually be crazy. v_v

Well, tomorrow I AM getting up early and I AM going to WalMart so I can buy one more think for the girls doing facepainting, and then I AM going to the Celebration and I AM going to class. Also, I AM going to work on my JW paper during the Celebration cuz it's important for me to get going with that.

Anyway.

Guess I'll go back to my world and see what's going on there. ttyl.

I Dreamed of Foccaccia Bread

and there were so many different kinds, I couldn't decide!

Food related dreams are the worst, cuz then I wake up and wish it was true (sometimes). :p

I haven't been writing because I haven't been feeling. . .good, mentally. I just thought I'd update and let you know. Cuz you care. Right.

Believe it or not, I did all my reading for school this week so I finally decided to start on Dark Horse, the book about Garfield's rise to the presidency and then the assassination, of course. Did I mention that I found a new book in B&N the other day called The Temple of Music? In case you can't gather from the title, it's about the McKinley assassination, but it's a fictionalized account of what happened. I looked it up online and apparently it's receved good reviews. Since the author paints Czolgosz as an anarchist though, I can't say I'd be able to give it more than 3 out of 5 stars just out of principle. ;p

Speaking of good reviews, All Shook Up opened yesterday (well, the previews) and everyone on the message boards that went to see it loved it! Oh, Jonathan, I knew you wouldn't mislead me, hehe.

Okay, I'm going to read.

But Somehow

days of eating fatty food have caused me to lose weight. Back to 115. Jeez. I swear my body doesn't make any sense!

. . .

I feel like I have a lot going on in the next few weeks.

Next Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday I'm helping set up and staffing the Celebration of Natural Body Types thing in the Union. That reminds me that I still have to do my part of it, a list of links on related subjects that we're going to have available. That means I have to email the girl from the Nutrition club for all the links they were going to put in their own hand-out so I can incorporate them instead. I think. With my luck, they probably already typed their thing up. >:(

Then on March 5th (?) I am going to Brown University for the RI Labor History society's conference on the IWW (Industrial Workers of the World), who were this notorious, radical union in the early 1900's. It's an all day history-learning event (woohoo!) so I'm going with this girl Jen that I've known from my 400 level classes. Anyone else who wants to join is welcome-- hey, it's free and you get coffee, breakfast, and a buffet for lunch. Sounded good to me. ;P

Then in April is the trip to NYC, of course, but I won't get into that much until the time draws closer. Rich and I are still working out exactly how we're going to get there and stuff. I think All Shook Up starts its on-Broadway previews soon, so it should be interesting to hear how it's received. More mixed-positive reviews are all I ask for, hehe.

Then besides all that I have an 8 page paper/presentation to work on for my Holocaust class. I was up in the air about my topic before, but I think I have enough on the Jehovah's Witnesses to run with (hopefully, cuz I've started taking notes from my various sources). Our teacher is not very straight forward about when things are due, so I don't actually know at this point when he expects it to be done. Hopefully it won't be til after Spring Break. I'm not going anywhere this year and probably won't get more than one extra day at work, so I could probably bang the whole thing out. I don't know. Can't worry about it. Worrying is bad.

Well, I have to go do some MORE reading for class now, so til next time. . .

Lots of Fatty Food = Unhappy Stomach

Today I ate:
a generous serving of Ben and Jerry's for breakfast (the new brownie/raspberry flavor!)
China Buffet for lunch (not a huge amount, but still)
Jelly Belly jelly beans (some)
a big cup of herbal tea, with honey
a grilled chicken sandwich from Wendy's and a Biggie serving of fries

and then I felt thoroughly ill.

I think my stomach is more sensitive than it used to be, cuz I really don't ever get nauseous. Definitely not so much that I wonder if "it" might happen involuntarily (!). O_o

It was either just the fact that I only ate fatty/sugary foods today or maybe something I ate was a bit off. Did you know that most people do get low grade food poisoning several times a year? It doesn't have to be anything dramatic-- just a regular case of the runs or gasiness/bloating can be the result. (Isn't my journal so poetic? ;p) I forgot where I read that, but I know it was somewhere credible. And I think it makes sense.

Anyway, it's been a long time since I had the Wendy's but I'm still feeling nauseous and getting a bit of acid reflux (I think the fries are still in my stomach!). I think tomorrow I'm going to stick with SIMPLE foods and stay far, far away from the junk. Then I'm going to make sure I don't have another "total fatty food day" for a long, long time.

Zombies!

Do you remember the first story in Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark 2? Well, in case you don't, it's about this dude that's walking down the street, and people he passes by all look at him strangely. When he finally passes by a window and catches his reflection, he realizes that he DOES look awful. Since he doesn't know what the hell he's doing downtown, he decides to call home and someone unfamiliar picks up. Turns out his wife is at a funeral-- her husband (the dude) died in a car accident downtown.

Yeah, well, minus the car accident-death part, this somewhat describes me day so far. ;p I am still sick, but I haven't gone to a single class all week and since the 102 degree fever is mostly gone, I figured today was a good day to go back. People have been looking at me strangely though, and it's no wonder why. I probably look like the guy in the story (as in: like death), but who really cares when they don't feel well? If I could have dragged a blanket and my Flying Purple Lamb with me to school, I probably would have! Sometimes I'd rather be comfortable than impressive when it comes to my appearance, hehe.

I Apologize

for the last entry.

But I'm not apologizing to my readers, I'm apologizing to myself!

I think spending all weekend in an evil, deep black mood (not by choice) had a hand in making me physically sick for the past few days.

I think, after this past weekend, I needed to get this cold. As it says in this book I'm reading, getting sick is the perfect time to/for:

• lie down
• stop doing
• self-care
• no drama

I'm not too savvy with the last two, particularly #3.

I made myself join a new message board today to hopefully take the place of the less-healthy boards I used to post on. I don't like being a newbie! There's a lot of people on this board and naturally I'm frightened that I'm going to get lost in the mix and no one is ever going to notice me or reply to my posts (ie. what I have to say).

You know, the way I feel in real life social settings. :

But I have to stick with it-- I HAVE to. I had almost 2000 posts on LB when I left, so of course people would recognize me after being around for that long! And I know for fact that I was very much UNknown and UNnoticed when I started posting there. It only makes sense that everyone starts out that way.

I'm looking for one more place to post, but good message boards are hard to find! There's one I was looking at, but they have an ED board which I *still* found too triggery, so I gotta keep searching.

Well, I'm still not feeling entirely well, so it's back to bed for me.

Stuff and Stuff, Etc.

First off, just wanted to thank the person who left me a comment on my Assassins CD review. I like hearing from other people, particularly their views on other Sondheim shows/recordings. I actually used to lurk and occasionally post at Sondheim.com's Finishing the Chat but I hightailed it out of there a few months go. Why? Well I felt guilty when I promised two different people some sources/typed up primary articles on some assassins and then never did! :X I know, I know, that's a pretty minor offense, but I still feel bad. ._.

In other news. . .

I feel so like crap right now. Today was just another bad day eating-wise. I'm really having a problem with it, despite my best efforts. I feel like the "good" days are far and few between. The only decent thing I can say is at least I'm exercising on a consistent basis. Otherwise. . .?

So let's see what I had today.

a whole wheat bagel with margarine and apricot preserves - fine
2 graham cracker rectangles - probably unnecessary
curry; brown rice, 1 yellow squash, about 1/2 cup black beans, 1 tomato, most of 1 plantain, and a bunch of spices - had this for lunch and at work; fine
about three scoops of Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Therapy - I wasn't even hungry, so this was definitely not necessary; no reflux-y problems
2 pieces of mango pickle -- god, I love you
2 fudge Reese's cups - craving chocolate, despite the ice cream; totally impulsive; not okay
1 small bag of Smartfood - only 100 calories, but this was after I ate the big container of my curry that I brought along (to work); I was upset bout having had the chocolate before, and so I felt that getting rid of this 100 calories was a necessity. ::barf:: ._.
1 Cadbury Creme Egg - total impulse snack ::barf:: ._. ._. x a billion
1 oatmeal raisin cookie - does it even matter at this point?
1 can of New England clam chowder - would have been okay if I hadn't snacked so much today; no reverse peristalsis of the esophagus, heh

Being at work is SO HARD because there is food EVERYWHERE, and all of it is crap. If I had not been at work today, I would not have had the Reeses, the smartfood, nor the creme egg. I very likely could have gone without purging. I feel like I am doing worse in that aspect of my semi-ED'd life. I feel like I am doing it more than before, which I don't think is a correct observation, but it feels that way. The past few times it has been out of necessity (eating lots of soup in one sitting leads the problems quite often) but I guess, when it comes down to it, it still counts. As I sit here writing this, I'm also reading an article in the New York Times' Magazine titled "My Addicted Son." Though he's talking about meth use, one of the son's quotes resonated with me: "How the hell did I get here?. . .This isn't so much sad as baffling. It all seemed so positive and harmless, until it wasn't." Different, but same.

Well, that's all I have to offer for now. I'm listening to the Dresden Dolls and liking it. I'd say that you should too, but you know how I feel about people copying me. ;P

Bad Vibrations?

So, in case you aren't already aware, Rich and I are going to NYC in April to see Mr. Hadary's new show, All Shook Up. As you may have guessed from its name, the songs used are all by Elvis, but the story is an original one, not about his life or anything. Anyway, it's one of a slew of such "jukebox musicals" that have been invading Broadway in the past few years, starting with Mamma Mia!, the ABBA musical and then Billy Joel's Movin' Out.

Although both of those shows have done well, a lot of dedicated Bway aficionados are growing sour on the idea of more shows with unoriginal songbooks. Good Vibrations, a musical based around (you guessed it) songs from the Beach Boys, has been the most recent jukebox musical to open on the Great White Way. And the reviews have been dismal.

I fervently hope that this is just because the show itself is pure crap, which is what lots of people on the Broadway boards that saw it in previews have said. Hopefully it's not just being shot down because it IS one of these jukebox shows-- if that IS the case, then I fear for All Shook Up when it opens in March. :
The difference is that All Shook Up has received mostly positive and mixed reviews from theatregoers and critics who have seen it in CT or Chicago. Very few people have really torn it apart, unlike GV, which got mutilated from its first few showings.

Although I'm personally not thrilled with the recent (and up-coming. . .there's already a Lennon show coming later this year, and I'm sure more are in the works that I just can't recall at the moment) influx of jukebox musicals, a decent show is a decent show. Although I listen to Sondheim musicals most of the time, occasionally I like something a bit more fluffy like La Cage Aux Folles, for instance. I'm hoping that All Shook Up will fall into that category-- not a brilliant, ground-breaking show necessarily, but a good time nevertheless. Besides, having read or heard most of the other shows Mr. Hadary has been involved with, I've come to the conclusion that he only gets involved in shows that are at least pretty good/interesting. Hopefully he won't let me down this time. :p

That's about it. I'm off to get a smoothie before History of RI. ~_~

Yeah, It's True

I'm really not graduating. :(

I went and talked to the lady at the Dean's Office this morning, and she was nice but unfortunately didn't tell me what I wanted to hear. :p Whoever was my advisor way back when obviously didn't read my transcript correctly. She had told me point blank that all I needed were my History classes and a few Gen Eds and I'd be all set. I did have SOME 300+ level courses transfer over as electives, but even combined with my high level History and Gen Ed courses, I do indeed come up short by 5 credits.

So.

I looked through the course catalogue last night to see what interesting 300+ level courses were out there, just in case it came down to this. There are some English and Philosophy ones that seem okay, and there is one Animal Science one on Domestic Animal Behavior that only requires AVS 101. Only thing is, I would prefer to finish my classes in the Summer, if possible. If worse comes to worse, I'll take stuff in the Fall, but at this point I'm just like whatever. Just give me my freaking degree.

Well, I'm gonna go read for awhile. Not in the mood for playing MahJong.

I'm Not Graduating (Possibly)

Yeah, I came home from work and my mom was like, "You got something in the mail from URI." So we both looked on as I opened it and I jokingly said "Yeah, they're telling me I'm not graduating."

And that was, in essence, what it said.

According to them, I am 5 credits short of the required 124 or whatever it is. Five? How does that even happen?! They say I just need more 300 level electives. All my Gen Eds are done, all my History courses are done, just freaking electives are holding me back. Maybe.

You see, way back before my first semester at URI, I met with an advisor to go over what credits transferred and all that. She said that DID have enough upper-level electives from UT. I am almost 100% positive that I still have the form she filled out which showed this. SO, I am definitely going to dig that up and take it to the Dean's Office tomorrow (or wherever they tell me to go). At this point, not graduating this semester would just be a big pain. What if my family moves to North Smithfield during the summer? There is no freaking way I am going to make such a long commute everyday. And what about work? I really am planning to leave Brooks, again partially cuz I wanted to find a different job in the Northern part of the state. Still having to be at URI would just mess everything up. The only good thing is it WOULD give me more time to prepare for my job search, but that's the only positive I can see. Not to mention, I have no idea what 300 level courses I would take. I've taken just about all the history classes that interest me, and most Psych and Animal Science courses have prereqs that I don't meet. Well, I'm not getting too worried about that yet. Hopefully I can get some answers by tomorrow or sometime soon.

I'm not feeling overly happy, so I think I'm gonna go read. At least my eating was okay today.

Might As Well Plug

my other online masterpiece. #_#

Jonathan Hadary is a f'ing awesome actor that doesn't get ANY recognition. I read. . .oh, about four different Broadway/theatre related message boards, and I have only seen him mentioned ONCE by another person. Even people that have reviewed his current show, All Shook Up, either overlook him altogether or are just like "Yeah, he was good." THAT IS INSANE. This man has probably gotten more work than most current Bway actors, so obviously he's doing something right!

I have felt a certain sense of outrage about this for a long time, so last year I took it upon myself to make Jonathan a bio on the Broadwayworld.com website. I can't tell you how much research I did to put this thing together-- like I said, he's been in a lot of stuff! and I'm willing to bet that my list is not even complete.

Sooooooo. . . you should go here and check it out. Help me feel as though I've done something meaningful for someone other than just myself. :p

I win!

If you're really bored, check out the review of the Assassins OBC that I wrote on Amazon.com!

Go to amazon.com, search for "assassins sondheim" in the Popular Music section, and click on the link for the 2004 Assassins recording (the one with the garish CD cover). Mine's the review titled "Assassins lite" under my pseudonym, Kace. :p I think I was pretty kind, haha. If you read my Assassins CD comparison that I did back during the summer, I just rehashed some of my main points (but in less than 70 pages this time O_o). Oh, and I realize that I have indeed only seen ONE live production of Assassins, but saying I've seen "several" gives me more cred. Trust me. ;)