I Apologize

for the last entry.

But I'm not apologizing to my readers, I'm apologizing to myself!

I think spending all weekend in an evil, deep black mood (not by choice) had a hand in making me physically sick for the past few days.

I think, after this past weekend, I needed to get this cold. As it says in this book I'm reading, getting sick is the perfect time to/for:

• lie down
• stop doing
• self-care
• no drama

I'm not too savvy with the last two, particularly #3.

I made myself join a new message board today to hopefully take the place of the less-healthy boards I used to post on. I don't like being a newbie! There's a lot of people on this board and naturally I'm frightened that I'm going to get lost in the mix and no one is ever going to notice me or reply to my posts (ie. what I have to say).

You know, the way I feel in real life social settings. :

But I have to stick with it-- I HAVE to. I had almost 2000 posts on LB when I left, so of course people would recognize me after being around for that long! And I know for fact that I was very much UNknown and UNnoticed when I started posting there. It only makes sense that everyone starts out that way.

I'm looking for one more place to post, but good message boards are hard to find! There's one I was looking at, but they have an ED board which I *still* found too triggery, so I gotta keep searching.

Well, I'm still not feeling entirely well, so it's back to bed for me.