It Won't Win, Though

Back to Day 1.

I love 7 Moons, and I loved the dish I had yesterday, but I shouldn't have eaten the whole thing. I thought I was alright when we were getting ready to leave, but I was a litle too full for comfort. I did legitimately want to use the bathroom in Borders for peeing purposes, but I had the bathroom all to myself and so. . .

But I triumphed today. :p

Ate a little container of applesauce and a bagel with lf peanut butter for breakfast. Then I had a can of ff veggie soup with chick peas for lunch. And 3 fudge stripe cookies.

Went to work, and I was like immediately stressing over what to eat during my break. I ended up eating a Take 5 bar for a snack and yes, I did end up in the bathroom with my Diet Pepsi w/ Lime BUT nothing happened. I stopped before it was too late and marched myself back out onto the floor. The urge was still there and I was a little refluxy, but no.

See, that's what I mean about not letting it take me over. I guess a lot of ED'd people just act on the urge automatically, but I've always had the ability to stop and say "wait a sec." Sometimes I do it anyway (ie yesterday) but sometimes I don't.

I only had a small black coffee during my break, but I came home and had a full dinner:
a cube of lf cheese
one of the Thai noodle things from work with veggies and 1/2 a can of kidney beans
some dates
some raisins
some almonds

And that'll be it til tomorrow.

It's difficult. I am undoubtedly not as bad as many people, but seeing as I have a difficult time going even *a month* without purging means something's up, I suppose.

Tomorrow I don't have my Holocaust class, but I need to study a chunk of stuff for that class cuz I've been slacking. Maybe I will go to Starbucks in the morning instead of at night, but in any case, I can't just sit around and read Harry Potter all day (haha-- I started the 2nd book this morning and I'll probably finish it tonight! ^___^).