How Things Change
I woke up yesterday morning and was no longer depressed. If anything, I was in a really good mood. Nothing was different, and as before, I can't explain the shift.
That my happiness improved was actually a surprise. You see, the night before, I found out something that is distinctly not good news. Remember how Rich was maybe going to Denmark for a year or two? Well, that fell through, but his company recently started a branch in Texas and Rich requested to work there for a year or two instead. :\ I can't say that was totally unexpected, as he's always wanted to live in that state (he has relatives near Dallas, about 4 hours away from where he'd be) and I know he likes the company he currently works for and doesn't want to leave them anytime soon.
As before, I want him to do what he wants to do. The plans aren't solid yet, although I guess his boss or whoever it is he told was sure that the transfer could be easily arranged. But it's still difficult for me. Yes, at least he would still be in the US, but Texas isn't exactly close to where I live, and it's doubtful that I could afford plane tickets to go visit. So. . .I don't know, sucks to be me. :p
Well I guess it's frustrating because it looks like my plans have changed *again* and that I'll be staying in RI for at least a few years. Not that Rich and I would probably continue living together for too much longer even if he were to/does stay, but at least we could still get together every so often. I just worry because I'm scared of losing contact. I know that sounds crazy, since we are still close and the idea seems unimaginable, but it's happened before. People I swore I wouldn't lose contact with have mostly all fallen away, even those whom I was very close to.
So.
Grr, there's more I wanted to talk about, but Rich is back right now and we're talking and it's hard to type meanwhile and gah.
That my happiness improved was actually a surprise. You see, the night before, I found out something that is distinctly not good news. Remember how Rich was maybe going to Denmark for a year or two? Well, that fell through, but his company recently started a branch in Texas and Rich requested to work there for a year or two instead. :\ I can't say that was totally unexpected, as he's always wanted to live in that state (he has relatives near Dallas, about 4 hours away from where he'd be) and I know he likes the company he currently works for and doesn't want to leave them anytime soon.
As before, I want him to do what he wants to do. The plans aren't solid yet, although I guess his boss or whoever it is he told was sure that the transfer could be easily arranged. But it's still difficult for me. Yes, at least he would still be in the US, but Texas isn't exactly close to where I live, and it's doubtful that I could afford plane tickets to go visit. So. . .I don't know, sucks to be me. :p
Well I guess it's frustrating because it looks like my plans have changed *again* and that I'll be staying in RI for at least a few years. Not that Rich and I would probably continue living together for too much longer even if he were to/does stay, but at least we could still get together every so often. I just worry because I'm scared of losing contact. I know that sounds crazy, since we are still close and the idea seems unimaginable, but it's happened before. People I swore I wouldn't lose contact with have mostly all fallen away, even those whom I was very close to.
So.
Grr, there's more I wanted to talk about, but Rich is back right now and we're talking and it's hard to type meanwhile and gah.
posted by Erica at 11:33 PM
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