It Never Fails
I've ranted about this before, but what am I supposed to do when it keeps happening?
Basically, Chris was inviting people to his house on Monday night for a Halloween get together. It's not even a "party" per se, but from what I heard, there will be candy and hot apple cider and scary movies.
I heard, but I wasn't supposed to-- because I am not invited.
As I've said, this has happened before, but I have no idea why. It especially hurts because it's *Chris* who I consider myself somewhat close to. He's one of those rare people that I almost immediately "clicked" with, but I guess that doesn't mean much. I really don't understand. We constantly joke around and have a whole slew of inside jokes, but we have also had serious conversations about all sorts of things. Supposedly I'm one of his favorite people. . .but I guess that's only while we're at work.
I know he talks to other coworkers outside of Brooks, and from what I've heard, fairly often! I tentatively invited him to Starbucks awhile back, in fact I think it was while I was still with Rich, so it was unquestionably not a date-like situation. Unfortunately our schedules clashed, so we couldn't find a time and it never happened. But now I kinda wonder if that was the truth, or if he just didn't want to and needed an excuse.
If he had asked me to come over Monday, I would have said yes. I have a midterm in the evening, but I'd probably be done by 6, and it didn't sound like his shindig was starting til later anyway. I never have plans on Monday nights and this week I won't even have any real homework to do that night. So I guess I'll just be sitting at home unless I decide to go out for coffee or whatever. Too bad, cuz cider and candy and movies would be fine with me. :(
This is one of those situations that, in the past, I would have blamed myself for. But as far as I'm concerned, I've done nothing to deserve this kind of treatment. I'll never understand why it happens, but what can I really do?
Basically, Chris was inviting people to his house on Monday night for a Halloween get together. It's not even a "party" per se, but from what I heard, there will be candy and hot apple cider and scary movies.
I heard, but I wasn't supposed to-- because I am not invited.
As I've said, this has happened before, but I have no idea why. It especially hurts because it's *Chris* who I consider myself somewhat close to. He's one of those rare people that I almost immediately "clicked" with, but I guess that doesn't mean much. I really don't understand. We constantly joke around and have a whole slew of inside jokes, but we have also had serious conversations about all sorts of things. Supposedly I'm one of his favorite people. . .but I guess that's only while we're at work.
I know he talks to other coworkers outside of Brooks, and from what I've heard, fairly often! I tentatively invited him to Starbucks awhile back, in fact I think it was while I was still with Rich, so it was unquestionably not a date-like situation. Unfortunately our schedules clashed, so we couldn't find a time and it never happened. But now I kinda wonder if that was the truth, or if he just didn't want to and needed an excuse.
If he had asked me to come over Monday, I would have said yes. I have a midterm in the evening, but I'd probably be done by 6, and it didn't sound like his shindig was starting til later anyway. I never have plans on Monday nights and this week I won't even have any real homework to do that night. So I guess I'll just be sitting at home unless I decide to go out for coffee or whatever. Too bad, cuz cider and candy and movies would be fine with me. :(
This is one of those situations that, in the past, I would have blamed myself for. But as far as I'm concerned, I've done nothing to deserve this kind of treatment. I'll never understand why it happens, but what can I really do?
posted by Erica at 8:24 PM
2 Comments:
I hate being left out.
I remember as a kid the cool kid in the class made a group and allowed everyone to join but the people he didn't like - ie me. They had a stupid password - kazamagoogoo - which I learnt off another kid.
Damn it must have a had an impression on me. Curse you Jason S and your stupid coolness.
I can imagine what you are going through.
You're always welcome at my blog.
Well I think what bothers me most about this situation is that we ARE so friendly while we're all at work. If they always left me out, at least I'd know that they just aren't fond of me. And I have been invited to their outings in the past, although back then it was a slightly different group of people, so maybe that made the difference.
It is frustrating, but I am trying not to dwell on it.
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