235th Entry!
Just noticed that.
There will be 3 parts to this entry. The typical mundane crap, a small story about this girl from work and a long philosophy-related rambling. I'll start with that.
The Philosophy Stuff
(this mildly counts as working on my paper, since I will need to be able to write about this!)
So I'm still working with Kierkegaard. Another subject he brings up is the difference between being a "knight of infinite resignation" and a "knight of faith." The main difference is that the K of F has made "the leap of faith" into the type of involved lifestyle that I mentioned briefly in my other blog (and if you don't read that, the gist is this: the best way to live is to be so wrapped up in some subject or cause that your life is basically consumed by it and nothing else is of importance. not my idea of a good time, but apparently it was for Kierk). Now, before one leaps into faith, one is presumably living in the "ethical" and part of that is a feeling of resignation concerning one's life.
For example. . .
Person 1 really wants a Hamster Boy. He wants to throw an infant into a corral with lots and lots of hamsters and hopes that they will teach him how to live as they do. Awesome, right? (YES) Well, it doesn't take long for Person 1 to realize that this is impossible, and he feels some amount of pain over this. He doesn't doubt that he *wishes* it would happen, but he knows that it can't and he mourns that fact. That's being a Knight of Resignation and living in the ethical realm.
Person 2 also wants a Hamster Boy. He has no advantage over Person 1 though, and also realizes it is impossible. BUT. Instead of acknowledging the pain he feels and stopping there, he would think something along the lines of "I believe Hamster Boy WILL be mine someday although it is absurd; God can make it possible." And that shows the leap from being merely ethical to being faithful. Hence, he would be a Knight of Faith.
Then Kierk goes into stuff about how it's still okay even if Person 2 never gets Hamster Boy because it's a finite decision and has to be constantly made, unlike with resignation, which is infinite. Gah, that's where it gets confusing.
Kierk felt that everyone was capable of infinite resignation, but very few people were capable of this so-called great "life o' faith." His theories all make a lot of sense if you take a look at his own life. Instead of Hamster Boy, he illustrates the differences with the two knights longing for some unattainable princess. See, he had this girl Regina that he had been engaged to, but he broke it off because he was called to "follow his passion." In later years he went crawling back to her, only to find that she was already married or at least engaged to someone else cuz hell, she wasn't going to wait around. So I'm willing to bet that *he* may have longed to have her back and it's easy to see how his ideas on resignation/faith make sense in that situation.
I should use Hamster Boy in my paper, hehe.
The WTF Story
There's this new-ish girl at work that also goes to URI and I was talking to her the other day. I asked if she was taking any History classes and she said no, but asked why I was interested. I told her I'm a history major and her reaction was along the lines of "Why would anyone major in that!? I hate history!" so, naturally, I asked what *she* was majoring in.
She said she hadn't decided yet (she's a sophomore) but that it's not important to her. The only reason she even goes to URI is because, no word of a lie, she wants to meet some pharmacy majors because she plans on marrying someone who's going to be rich so she won't have to work. I swear to you I'm not kidding! I thought *she* was and I laughed when she said that, but she told me she was absolutely serious. She's in a sorority (surprise) and it sounds like all she does when she's not at work is drink, smoke pot, and go to parties or out clubbing. So yeah, she's basically in college just to have a good time and to meet someone.
I think some of my brain cells died just from *hearing* this.
Well, I haven't seen her sweet talking with any of the pharmacy techs yet, but um, good luck with that. None of the guys that work in the front store are very fond of her! ;p
Mundane Crap
I got a B+ on my first history paper! :( This is completely unacceptable. She wrote only good comments, so why couldn't she have edged it up to an A-? Grrr, this just means I have to completely rock on my first 5 page paper.
Speaking of history, I started talking to some guy in there today. We don't sit near each other, but we both tend to get there early, so we have to stand around in the hallway. Seems nice. Also a history major. He's only a junior though, so he's a few years younger, but that's all the info I know about him. I don't even know his name, otherwise I'd stalk him on Facebook V_v hehe
It's been almost a month since Rich and I broke up. I don't know when the right time is to start dating someone else. Well, you know how I feel about people making relationships complicated, so that's not my goal. I guess I'll just keep doing what I'm doing and see what materializes. It's not even that I'm in a rush, I'm just saying.
I downloaded Oregon Trail and I've been playing it nonstop. On my last trip, I got cholera and a broken leg before dying. It sucks to be me, haha.
Well, I have a TON of reading to do for both my classes, so I'm gonna go start that.
There will be 3 parts to this entry. The typical mundane crap, a small story about this girl from work and a long philosophy-related rambling. I'll start with that.
The Philosophy Stuff
(this mildly counts as working on my paper, since I will need to be able to write about this!)
So I'm still working with Kierkegaard. Another subject he brings up is the difference between being a "knight of infinite resignation" and a "knight of faith." The main difference is that the K of F has made "the leap of faith" into the type of involved lifestyle that I mentioned briefly in my other blog (and if you don't read that, the gist is this: the best way to live is to be so wrapped up in some subject or cause that your life is basically consumed by it and nothing else is of importance. not my idea of a good time, but apparently it was for Kierk). Now, before one leaps into faith, one is presumably living in the "ethical" and part of that is a feeling of resignation concerning one's life.
For example. . .
Person 1 really wants a Hamster Boy. He wants to throw an infant into a corral with lots and lots of hamsters and hopes that they will teach him how to live as they do. Awesome, right? (YES) Well, it doesn't take long for Person 1 to realize that this is impossible, and he feels some amount of pain over this. He doesn't doubt that he *wishes* it would happen, but he knows that it can't and he mourns that fact. That's being a Knight of Resignation and living in the ethical realm.
Person 2 also wants a Hamster Boy. He has no advantage over Person 1 though, and also realizes it is impossible. BUT. Instead of acknowledging the pain he feels and stopping there, he would think something along the lines of "I believe Hamster Boy WILL be mine someday although it is absurd; God can make it possible." And that shows the leap from being merely ethical to being faithful. Hence, he would be a Knight of Faith.
Then Kierk goes into stuff about how it's still okay even if Person 2 never gets Hamster Boy because it's a finite decision and has to be constantly made, unlike with resignation, which is infinite. Gah, that's where it gets confusing.
Kierk felt that everyone was capable of infinite resignation, but very few people were capable of this so-called great "life o' faith." His theories all make a lot of sense if you take a look at his own life. Instead of Hamster Boy, he illustrates the differences with the two knights longing for some unattainable princess. See, he had this girl Regina that he had been engaged to, but he broke it off because he was called to "follow his passion." In later years he went crawling back to her, only to find that she was already married or at least engaged to someone else cuz hell, she wasn't going to wait around. So I'm willing to bet that *he* may have longed to have her back and it's easy to see how his ideas on resignation/faith make sense in that situation.
I should use Hamster Boy in my paper, hehe.
The WTF Story
There's this new-ish girl at work that also goes to URI and I was talking to her the other day. I asked if she was taking any History classes and she said no, but asked why I was interested. I told her I'm a history major and her reaction was along the lines of "Why would anyone major in that!? I hate history!" so, naturally, I asked what *she* was majoring in.
She said she hadn't decided yet (she's a sophomore) but that it's not important to her. The only reason she even goes to URI is because, no word of a lie, she wants to meet some pharmacy majors because she plans on marrying someone who's going to be rich so she won't have to work. I swear to you I'm not kidding! I thought *she* was and I laughed when she said that, but she told me she was absolutely serious. She's in a sorority (surprise) and it sounds like all she does when she's not at work is drink, smoke pot, and go to parties or out clubbing. So yeah, she's basically in college just to have a good time and to meet someone.
I think some of my brain cells died just from *hearing* this.
Well, I haven't seen her sweet talking with any of the pharmacy techs yet, but um, good luck with that. None of the guys that work in the front store are very fond of her! ;p
Mundane Crap
I got a B+ on my first history paper! :( This is completely unacceptable. She wrote only good comments, so why couldn't she have edged it up to an A-? Grrr, this just means I have to completely rock on my first 5 page paper.
Speaking of history, I started talking to some guy in there today. We don't sit near each other, but we both tend to get there early, so we have to stand around in the hallway. Seems nice. Also a history major. He's only a junior though, so he's a few years younger, but that's all the info I know about him. I don't even know his name, otherwise I'd stalk him on Facebook V_v hehe
It's been almost a month since Rich and I broke up. I don't know when the right time is to start dating someone else. Well, you know how I feel about people making relationships complicated, so that's not my goal. I guess I'll just keep doing what I'm doing and see what materializes. It's not even that I'm in a rush, I'm just saying.
I downloaded Oregon Trail and I've been playing it nonstop. On my last trip, I got cholera and a broken leg before dying. It sucks to be me, haha.
Well, I have a TON of reading to do for both my classes, so I'm gonna go start that.
posted by Erica at 6:25 PM
1 Comments:
We never did Kierkegard - though I think the important question you should be addressing in your paper is: "How can I create a hamster boy?".
Make sure it includes illustrations.
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On the girl. I think she'll miss out on a lot of what life has to offer.
She sounds as if she wants to make herself dependant on her pharmacist - not a good way to live life, being dependant on something beyond your control.
Tends to backfire as you don't get the nice I choose to be with you, rather than need to be with you, type relationships.
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B+ is excellent. As I got older the most important thing I found about uni (college) was, was I learning new stuff.
Don't make my mistake. Don't judge things by how far they are away from perfect (ie A+) but only by how far they are away from not existing (F).
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Anyways, we were talking about hamster boys.
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