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This morning I was pleasantly surprised when my parents asked if I wanted to go out to breakfast with them. I don't normally get to go out for breakfast, so even though spending time with my parents isn't at the top of my list, I said sure, why not?

It was an amazingly decent time. I often feel like my "family" is just three separate people who happen to live under the same roof, seeing as I do my own thing all the time and my parents constantly bicker. Anyone who's spent time at my house knows that it's not exactly a comfortable atmosphere. But the hour or so that we spent eating at Oatley's felt like the way a family *should* act together, at least in my mind.

I had a scrambled egg, two large banana pancakes, and a cup of coffee (black with Equal). I had never been to that restaurant before, but the food was really good and I finished every last bit.

So, yes. Everything was fine. When we got back home, I grabbed my usual sections from the newspaper and sat down at the kitchen table to read them. About a second later, my Mom came up behind me and was like. . .rubbing my back (?!) so of course I squirmed away and was like "what??!" (I'm extremely uncomfortable being hugged/kissed/touched by relatives, yes, including my Mom. I'm never this way with boyfriends, but with anyone else, I am a complete Ice Queen. No reason why. It just feels weird to me.) My Mom was like "Are you feeling okay?" which was completely out of the blue. I responded with a questioning "Yes. . .?!" because what had I done to make it seem otherwise? Furthermore, she's asked me this question (or "is everything okay?") several times over the past few days. What is up???

I don't think I've been acting differently at home lately. . .why would I? A few weeks ago, when I was sad/upset/anxious about the Situation, these questions might have been understandable. So the only things I can come up with are:

1) My neighbor mentioned something to her. My neighbor loves commenting on "how skinny" I am. I saw her last week and she was like "Have you lost *more* weight? You almost disappear from the side!" I think she is highly delusional, but I wasn't going to argue. Anyway, she knows that I've been ED'd. . .maybe she thinks I've been going at it again and said something to my Mom? My parents never comment on my weight, but I'm not sure if the same ten lbs I repeatedly gain and lose is really that obvious anyway. Maybe it is to my neighbor since she doesn't see me very often. I don't know. When she said that to me, I just shrugged and was like "I haven't been weighing myself, but I've been running more often, so maybe I have lost some weight." Which is all kinda the truth.

2) My parents have been using my computer when they want to go online. It's possible that they saw thinpages or lunchbox in my history and were like "hmm." Or hell, I have a whole Favorites folder for ED related links, so maybe they stumbled upon that. Not that I even visit those links with any frequency, but how would they know that?

3)I've been bad about cleaning my room lately and there are candy wrappers/empty food containers all over the place. Could be suspicious?

4) Maybe I didn't clean up the toilet very well last time. I'm so NOT going into details, but sometimes you get splash-back and maybe an undigested whole pea or piece of carrot or something didn't get flushed away. It could happen. I don't remember what I ate last time I did, so this one's merely a guess. Somehow I think this would have caused more of a freak-out, or maybe everyone's just used to it by now. :/

So we'll see if this continues. . .

Work was typical. The next few weeks are going to be hellish because we are losing *four* people after this week. And no, Lora has NOT hired anyone else yet! I have to hand in my fall semester schedule tomorrow, though I still haven't worked it out. I'll have to do that tomorrow morning, cuz I'm going to need some atypical hours, so the sooner I let her know, the better. Lora's always been good about giving me the times/days I need, so I'm not too concerned.

Finally, Travis pointed me towards this article earlier tonight and it's very exciting news! If you want to find out more about the Union Network International, their website is here, but beware. I like what the organization has set out to do with Walmart, etc. but their website needs some work. :p ;)

Good night!