I Hate To Do This, But. . .

you guys are going to be getting my weight/food/etc. accountablity in here.

I guess you could say that like most people, I've decided to eat healthier and start exercising (again) as a New Year's Resolution of sorts. Thing is, it's not that I just want to lose weight (cuz I think I am "okay" at my current weight, but I'm female, so naturally I think I could be thinner ;p) but that there are some ::ahem:: unhealthy habits that I need to be more adamant about stopping. I think that if I can eat a normal sized, balanced diet, and exercise a little bit, I might be able to stop the bingeing, etc. and that's what I really need to do.

I've already made a few steps towards being healthier in this realm. I've stopped going to pro-ED boards. Completely. I'm not even letting myself go back to check who left comments in my journal or whatnot asking where I've been. I hate being rude by just dropping off the forum, but I know if I go back, I won't be able to resist reading the threads that occasionally trigger me. I enjoy reading and writing in those places, I'm even semi-well known on one of them, but there's just too many reasons why I shouldn't go back. Too many hypocrites, too much normalization of behaviors and goals that I guess are not healthy/realistic. And sometimes reading what other people are able to get away with, without their bodies giving out on them, makes me think I am not that bad and there's little reason for me to quit. So I've given up ED boards cold turkey.

Then I started thinking about times when my diet was both healthy and filling; when I was on my meal plan from Butler and when I did a me-version of the South Beach essentially, cutting out shite carbs and keeping a low amount of the good grains.

I decided that maybe I would go back on my modified SB diet, and I was in the bookstore checking out different diet/exercise books. Now mind you, I'm not easily swayed by fad diets and exercise routines. But one book I found caught my eye. I flipped through it, and not only was the exercise plan do-able, but the menu was realistic and essentially a combination of my two ways of eating mentioned above. Soooooooo. . .after thinking it over and reading people's reviews of the program online, I bought the book. (And no, I'm not telling you which one cuz it sounds hokey even to me, but I swear the content is much better than the title! >;p)

Today is Day One. It is a 6 week program, and I am sticking with it. And I think after that, it's common sense enough that I'll be able to continue the plan on my own.

So, my starting info is this:
height: 5'5"
cw: 120
bmi: 20
measurements:
waist: 25"
hips/butt: 38" ::barf::
thigh: 19"
calf: 13"
chest (underneath boob area): 29"

I am not setting any "goals." Those don't work well with me.

Today I walked for 2.5 hours at the mall (yeah, I was with my Mom, so. . .) and did about 25 minutes of lower body work this morning.

I have eaten:
breakfast = 1 cup of Kashi cereal, 1 cup of chocolate rice milk, 1 soy sausage patty, and 1/2 an apple
lunch = 2 cups of salad greens with 2/3 cup of tofu, 2 tbsp of a lf dressing, and 1 slice of wheat bread
dinner will be a lobster and some veggies with salsa and a slice of cheese, and a Creamsicle for dessert. :)

And we'll see what happens from here.